people are just naturally fickle.
You start to grow close to someone then they are gone.
They turn their back to you.
And as they slowly start to disappear, you realize you are all alone.
or at least until the cycle starts all over again
over the past few months i have learned that i need to do things for myself.
I can not base my decisions on others.
I can not have these figures fading in and out of my life and just wait around for them.
I may only rely on myself. I must make decisions based on what "I" want.
Although you may think this is selfish, it is not.

I am not running away from anything. I am just trying to find purpose in my life.

I am so tired and worn out.
I need some help. and there is nobody to lean on.

Right now i am in one of those low points of my life.
I don't have anything to keep my head up and make me happy.

I've thought about quitting. and everything each person does in my life makes it just a bit worse even though they may not mean to.

I am just so sensitive right now and i feel like few people understand that.
This is why I think that i need to go into hibernation

I can just clean my apartment and do artwork/homework. speaking of i have a paper due tomorrow at 2 that i need to start!

I hope that Life throws me something to help
and i hope that it is a new person. i could use an extra spice of character.
other than that

i just hope that things get better.